I am Walter and this is my World.

I am Walter and this is my World.

Monday, August 3, 2009


Hard day. Not for Walter, he's taking all this in stride. I seemed to cry at the drop of any hat today. I cried if there was good news, cried if there was bad. I just couldn't stop. Maybe it's just a bad day, but everything seems overwhelming today. I am going to make some tea, light an Indy Blogger candle and try to work while wally sleeps. Must remember all I am grateful for, including, especially those darn mini marshmallows.

I wanted to stop feeling sorry for myself for one second and give a special shout out to Tweedles, we have tried to comment on your blog and the log-in is weird for us, but we will keep trying. We love you!

Also, Annie from INdiana, who sent Walter the BIGGEST bag of rawhides, he was num-num-numming them all day and didn't even notice his mama falling apart because he was in heaven! I hear you helped put this box together, and we thank you so SO much. It was and is a thing of beauty and so are you.
Heather and Walter


Pug Posse said...

Sorry you had a hard day today. Sometimes you just have to cry to get it out, even if they're happy tears! I hope the candles work. At least the marshmallows are working :-)

Pug hugs and kisses!
Vikki and the Pug Posse

BRUTUS said...

Gotta have some not-so-good days every once & a while to make you appreciate the ones that are special in a good way! Sometimes those tear ducts just need a little flushing out :)

Brutus the Frenchie

Otis Says... said...

Heather -

Hang in there you and Walter have been through so much. It is going to get better a little every day. Walter looks good. Hopefully Tuesday will be better.

Yoda and Brutus said...

I think you are finally starting to relax and realize that Walter is going to be OK and your emotions are finally catching up with you. It's OK to cry - sometimes that is the only thing that helps.

Pugs & Kisses

Yoda & Brutus (and Pug Mama Cindy)

Jen and Maxwell said...

we are sending you big hugs, we all have to breakdown sometimes...its ok, and Walter knows without any doubt in his sweet head that his mommy loves him!!!

pug kisses and belly rubs, jen and maxwell

Heather and Walter said...

You are hitting on something there - it does feel like the red-siren-crisis-mode has passed, and we are easing into a schedule and I have more time to breathe and cry. Sort of let the enormity of this thing hit me.

Manda Girl said...

Big (((HUGS))) tomorrow is a new beginning! There will be days like this - but we will all be here to listen and to lean on.

Nettie said...

Totally normal to be feeling the way you do!! I remember when my mom was sick, I was so strong through all the hospital stuff; then once we knew she was gonna be okay; I completely broke down! It means you are strong when you need to be; so take comfort in your tears! I am wondering if you are able to have some "belly time" with Walter, as you spoke of earlier?? I would think it would do the both of you good!!

Miss Mya said...

I've been following Walter for over a year, I too have a pug and they are just the best dogs. I am so heartbroken over what Walter has been through, and you. I'm glad to see him recovering. It's great to see how devoted you are to him. Are you taking donations yet? :-)


Heather and Walter said...

I'm Still too paranoid of his screw "backing out" again for belly to belly time quite yet, so today I climbed in scamperland and gave him a trucker bath (wet wipes) and kissed him all over and massaged his shoulders, which are sore from doing extra work for his back legs. I just kept kissing him and telling him what a good strong handsome boy he was and how brave he's being. That made me feel lots better. He takes a sunbath every morning on his healing blanket and the sparkly things glitter. My mom said "it looks like there's m,agic all around him..."

Tweedles -- that's me... said...

Hi Walter and Heather.
Tears gotta come out, or else you will pop. So let them flow. It's a good thing- like flowers needing rain- you gotta let the tears come.
I agree- your exhaugsted and you have more time to think and feel. It will even out.
I don't know what is wrong with the cranky pants blogger thing that won't let you comment on my bloggie. That makes me very upset!
I even removed some of my awards to make it load faster. And I changed my colors- did that screw it up? humm happytrails@peoplepc.com
We always are thinking of you.Think of the song "Hero's."
That is you and Walter

Tweedles -- that's me... said...

I am trying something else here to see if it helps

Puglette said...

awww, it's ok. sometimes the relief we feel when our loved one begin to improve overwhelms us just as much as the trauma does. you are probably relaxing a bit about walter's healing and the waterworks just flow. he is making a remarkable come back, we are keeping you both in our prayers.

Salinger The Pug said...

Crying days are good for you once in a while...it's good to purge it from your system...at least that's mom's excuse for what she calls "chocolate days"!

We like to think of it as "relief tears" knowing that Walter is ok!

Marshmallows ROCK! Mom gives me pills in them when I'm being turdley and won't take them in crunchy peanut butter!

Keep getting better dude!!!!


Smilingpug (aka Winston Wilbur) said...

Heather, you have been through so much with Walter that it is only natural to have what I call a "falling apart" day. Tears and more tears are just a result of the overwhelming situation you have gone through and are still going through. It is important to make time for yourself. The tea and candle idea is great. I find yoga or just relaxation helps. Whatever it is make sure you allow time for you. Walter can't do it all without you so it is important to look after yourself as well as Walter.

Pug hugs, Winston and Lise

Anonymous said...

Aww I'm sorry! It is good to let it all out.. Walter and you have are going through a huge thing right now.
Let the tears come. :)

Sending goof thoughts your way!

Asta said...

I'm sowwy I haven't come to visit fow days..I just saw all the wondewful gifts you've been getting, and I'm ovewjoyed to see you enjoying youwself.

auntie Heathew
Mommi says somedays awe like that. just ovewwhelming..let the teaws flow, hug youw sweet Waltew and somehow you go on, and the next day is bettew. Twust Mommi..she is soopew old and knows this stuff
Hope tomowwow is a much bettew day
smoochie kisses
ASTA and Mommi

The Great Rock Eater said...

It all had to come out at some point. It's a good thing to get the tears and the fears out. It's not healthy to keep them inside for to long. Just know that we are all here to support you and see you through this.

Pug Love & Kisses

Jess & Lilo

Harry Pugalicious said...

It's only natural for you to have a hard day here and there. You have been through so much! Hope today is a better day. Give Walter smooches from me and Harry.

Pearl said...

Hi Miss Heather. I am sorry that yesterday was a hard one. I think everyone else has hit the nail on the head with regards to your emotions catching up with you as the panic subsides.

I'm thinking of you today, and knowing that it will be a better day. You are wonderful!!

Love, Pearl and Kelly

Stubby said...

Hi Heather! It looks like Walter feels your pain in that picture. He knows that you are doing all you can for him and that the waterworks are temporary.

Mom has lots of bad days (for no good reason) and sometimes she tells me that 'when the tears flow, the heart heals.' I don't know what that means, but I'm betting you do.

Kisses to Walter.

Stubby xoxo

The Devil Dog said...

You have to allow yourself to cry. You have been through an awful lot emotionally. You have held it together when Walter was in tough shape. Now that he is doing better, you can't quite hold on as tight as you did. That's okay. It's expected. Cry all you want. You'll feel better. Also, sounds like you need a couple more nights of full sleep.


dw said...

You were strong when you needed to be -- when you needed to make decisions for Walter, when you needed to provide round the clock care for Walter, when you needed to pray and post and hope will all your heart that he would make it through, no matter his condition. Now that he is getting stronger, that it's not so much an immediate and constant dire concern, your body is feeling the effects of those days just as much as Walter's body felt the immediate effects of the accident. Cut yourself some slack, have yourself some chocolate. A good cry is sometimes necessary to relieve all that tension YOUR body has built up over the past three weeks. Walter understands, he knows you've been going above and beyond mommiehood to put his life back together (literally and figuratively). Now it's time to focus just for a small bit on you. Walter seems to be looking at you as if to say, "it's okay mom, I'll just sit here and watch out for you for a bit."


Rosie said...

It is amazing how when faced with hard times - hoomans somehow find the strength to get through it - crying is a natural release which will allow you to push forward. Hang in there - Walter sure is - remember babies, kids and pugs are all resilient!!

Melissa and Emmitt said...

hi heather and walter!
we are sending you both big hugs!
you are the strongest pug/people team we know and really inspire us everyday!
m & e

Heather and Walter said...

You guys are so amazing. I just have to come to these comments and read them and I feel better. Are pug people just naturally wise people? starting to think so....