I am Walter and this is my World.

I am Walter and this is my World.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Pity Party - Fell apart at Vets today

The accident was July 10th and Walter still hasn't pooped, so we went to vets to get him X-rayed and see whats up.

It looks like one of his fractured bones has shifted and is putting pressure on his digestive system. (his pelvis looks like a jigsaw puzzle, I will try to post X-rays) So now I'm praying "bone shift back, bone shift back..."

Anyway, when I heard the shifting bone thing I just lost it. Big tears. Luckily my mom was with me and took over from there...I didn't want to upset walter so ran to bathroom and sobbed in stall. I don't know why...the news wasn't nearly as awful as other news has been but I've just sort of come to the end of my rope with this trauma.

Am I strong enough to do this? Can I go on for months and months like this? Can I get my work done? and my job is easy compared to Walters. He's the one in pain, being poked and prodded, Xrayed and messed around with. He's the one who can't sleep through the night. (Neither can I but mine is anxiety, his is pain so his is worse)

My mom assures me miracles come when they're needed, so I am here on this corner of life, waiting for Walter's bone shifting back miracle and by God, I know it's going to come.

I just want to thank everyone who writes, it has been perhaps one of the biggest sources of comfort for me. Walter thanks you too. He loves being read your posts.


dw said...

Aww, Heather, you and Walter have been through sooooo much! I'm sending up a special prayer right now for a bone shift!

Stacy/Brutus said...

Oh I am so sorry. I know how you feel and yes you will get through this. When Bones (my cat) got sick I had just moved to NJ from Mississippi and take my first job. I had been working 3 months when he got sick. He went through a surgery, force feedings and then had to have a feeding tube. Doc said when he got out of surgery there was a 5% chance he would make it. That was 2003. You can do this. Take it day by day.

Brutus and Stacy

Mica said...

Heather, I think that you are handling this admirably and so bravely. Keep it up. The tears at the vet were certainly warranted! Maybe from here, things will improve, starting with Walter's bone shifting back into place.

I don't have a pug (or any pet, for that matter), but I am completely sympathetic to your troubles. Hang in there! I'll be thinking of you and Walter and checking back regularly for updates on his puggy progress.

Pearl said...

If misery likes company, I'll come to your pity party! This isn't fair, Heather! Not to you, not to Walter, not to Sarah... not fair to anyone! When you need to cry, cry. Be mad, be sad.. whatever. Just let yourself feel it.

After it passes, let us help you pick up the pieces. YES, you can do this. You can do your job. Your love for Walter is stronger than anything that can happen to him. Keep fighting. I know you'll never give up on him, and we're right here with ya!

Pug(s) and Bugg said...

We posted about you guys, hope that is ok?!?! Pug Prayers are being sent from the 3 of us!

Melissa and Emmitt said...

hi heather and walter

it is so good that we know that this shift has happened so we can visualze it healing and shifting back.

he is the strongest miracle pug in the whole world. he is so lucky to have you and we are sending you both all of our love.

m & e

Sequoia & Petunia said...

You can do this and so can Walter. You have been so strong so far and if you need to cry go ahead. This post almost made me cry. Walter will get that miracle an dhe is a little miracle. We are prating for that bone to shift back for Walter. Be strong. Pug Hugs are being sent you way.

Sequoia, Petunia and Jennifer.

Collin said...

As a pug owner myself, I have sat and read about the exploits of you and Walter for some months now. They always bring a smile to my face and remind me of my little bag of wrinkles. I have never been inspired enough to write anything until now. I was saddened to hear about Walter's injury and it immediately put me in your same situation; my little pug boy has escaped from my house many times and I can just imagine how I would feel had he been hit. I can only imagine the feelings that you are going through and the pain Walter is enduring. I don't think I can say anything different than what many others have already said, thoughts and prayers are with you both. The only thing I can say is please know this: The lives and love of you and Walter have brought smiles and now tears to a whole host of people, including myself.

C.l.o.v.e.r. said...

We are sending lots of love and hugs and good thoughts your way. We are all here for you anytime you need us.

Stanislaw said...

Heya Walter!
We come via another blog with well wishes for you. If you've made it this far, then you're totally going to go all the way, wee fella. Just think of the stuff those dogs on that Animal Planet show go through and survive... and they don't have mommies doting on them every second! My last owner went at me with a bat, and while I have rib bones that healed at odd angles I made it through with flying colors. I totally know you will too.

Doesn't the healing process usually get worse before it gets better? I mean, when things start to mend, I think they look awful and hurt more, and then all of a sudden everything turns around and before you know it, you're a healthy beast again. The uphill climb is hard at first, but it always gets easier towards the top. You're getting there... can you see it?

Yoda and Brutus said...

Sometimes you just have to let it out. Holding everything in is not good for you or Walter. I have faith that Walter will continue to get better, despite this setback. It is always darkest before the dawn. Will continue to keep you and Walter in our prayers.

Pug Posse said...

Heather, cry all you need to. It does no good for you or Walter to hold it in. You both will make it through this! I just wish we were close enough to you to help you out, even if it's just to offer hugs and a shoulder to cry on.

We're going to send out a plea for extra prayers on our blog today too!

Pug hugs and kisses!
Vikki and the Pug Posse

Anonymous said...

You poor thing, you need to let it out and let it go so you can keep going on.
I am sure that the bone will shift back on it's own or with some help and then Walter will be pooping like nobody's business.

I'm glad the we are able to offer you some comfort and know we aren't going anywhere.

Stubby said...

Mom tells me that sometimes it's good to cry. It helps the soul and clears the mind. It seems like it works for her and it probably works for you too.

I'm sending extra good vibes your way so that the bone will shift back. Walter is so strong and he knows that you're taking good care of him and of yourself.

I know that Walter cannot have any visitors right now but please show him my picture and tell him that I'm thinking about him. Maybe when he's stronger I can come visit him.

Stubby xoxo

Pugs and Kneedles said...

Heather and Walter, we are sending lots of hugs and puggy snuggles and snorts your way. Hang in there and just keep loving each other and snuggling. You are both in our hearts, thoughts and prayers.

BRUTUS said...

Hi Walter & Heather-

Saw you on Pug(s) & Bug's website, just read through all your posts since the accident. What an ordeal for both of you! But I can tell by what I read that you are both strong, and have made it this far for a reason! My dogs are like children to me, especially Brutus (my Frenchie - he does agility too!). Can't imagine a day without him, and reading your posts tears at my heart. Lean on each other, and don't be afraid! We'll think of you often and will keep up on your blog - can't wait to see you playing & jumping again.

Godspeed (& snorts)
Brutus the Frenchie & owner Michelle

Maggie and Mitch said...

You and your mom are always in our thoughts and prayers, Walter!


Love ya lots,
Maggie and Mitch

Three Pugsketeers said...

Heather; I'm one of your loyal followers. I haven't posted before but I wanted you to know that my furry famil and I are thinking about you and Walter and hoping things get so much better soon. You have so many people pulling for Walter I know he will recover!

Otis Says... said...

Heather & Walter

Walter is going to heal up and be that same great crazy pug. It would be wonderful if you and Walter could get some rest and for walter to poop. It always seem darkest before the dawn. We are all praying for you and pulling for you. Please hang in there it will get better.

Punchbugpug said...

visualize the shift......that's what we're doing....visualizing the shift...

agent99 said...

I've been following Walter since a few days before his accident. I think about him daily and hope his recovery goes well. Please allow the driver to help you with a fundraiser because Walter loves everyone! As a people doc, I also wanted to mention that the two biggest problems in post-surgical poop issues are immobility and narcotic pain meds. Walter is one tough pug, and he will ecentually poop, and recover. Keep up the good work.
Gen & Fuji

Asta said...

Waltew and his Mom
I came wight ovew when I wead about sweet Waltew and the howwible twauma you awe bof endoowing.
I'm sending stubbown , powewful tewwiew pwayews youw way Waltew will heal, the bone will shift. don't give up sweeties.
love and healing smoochie kisses

Emily said...

Walter- my pug Phillie and I wish you the best in your recovery! You bring tears to my eyes reading each post! Please keep us posted! xoxo

Hag said...

Heather & Walter, I have shed some tears while reading your story. Isabelle, the pug queen, and I are praying for you.
Candice & Isabelle

Joe Stains said...

We came right over to send all the healing vibes we've got.

Tweedles -- that's me... said...

Hi Heather and Walter,
We are saying so many prayers that we cannot count them. We are sending love and support to all of you. Walter is the miracle pug. Walter is fighting. He will make it through and you will too.
We know you are flat out drained physically and emotionally. We wish we could help.
Every second of every day we will send good thoughts and prayers
and moms

Life With Dogs said...

You certainly can do this, and Walter would thank you a thousand times over if he could. We are sending positive vibes...

Carla and Jessie said...

I've have been reading your blog lately from a post on Pug Possed. Will ask for community prayers on PugVillage.
healing vibes and loto of love and prayer for Walter and strength for you dear
Carla and Jessie From Lagos ( Nigeria)

Ruby and Penny said...

We are praying for you and Walter. You both can do this. Hang in there, Walter needs you.
Love Ruby & Penny

Sandra y Coco said...

I am sorry to hear about this complication. We are all praying for his prompt recovery and looking forward to more good news in the upcoming days.
Hugs & kisses from Coco and me.

Harry Pugalicious said...

Oh, Heather - I'm sorry to hear that. I'm sure it must be unbelievably difficult to experience any setback when there's so much recovery ahead for Walter.

If we could all take the hurt and the anxiety onto our shoulders so you wouldn't have to experience them and could just focus on his recovery, we would.

Thinking of you - and hoping for a good shift!

Rosie said...

You poor things - I feel so sad that you both have to go through this. I pray pray pray that Walter heals quickly and his pain goes away. It is heart breaking to think of him feeling so terrible and I know that you Heather as his mommy must hurt soo bad too! I am thinking of you both - big pug hugs